Proud o' My Darl!

Sayang sayang...

Of coz i'm proud of u.. How many of us can boast of being a dentist's asst? Hehe! Glad u took up d offer.. N i'm so hepi u're hepi wif ur life Dear!

As fer me, i'm glad too i haf a direction in life, except fer d occasional financial setback *sighs*, which i'll try 2 rectify in d times 2 cum ASAP ya! Juz hoping tat evryting goes smoothly y'noe.. Fer now, i'll juz haf to carry on learning as much as i can n contribute 2 d team.. If i sign on pon, lom tau i get to stay in Team Delta.. So i'll juz enjoy my time there fer now!

Well, letz pray fer each other tat our lifes go on smoothly n we achieve our dreams n aspirations.. *Amin*

U GO GERL!!

Me & Moi New Job

Fer the ferst time, here's my solo entry..
Jus abt me..

Well, after spendin 4 years of my life as a part-time cashier, I now have to deal wif a new grp of people.
In a way, they are my customers, only that they have to go thru and endure a lil' pain before coming back to me to settle their payment.
Haha! Guessed it?
Yup! I'm now a part-time dentist assistant. A totally new experience fer me!
My probational period's gonna end next Sundae. And tat makes me an absolutely fast learner *smiles widely* Now, if u ask me, i'll tell u tat i'm a part-time dentist assistant, and a part-part time cashier. Haha! (corny!!)
Moi sayang mus be very proud of me ait dear?
Life's like tat. Grab every chances tat come before u. Really!
Like sayang, he's aiming fer his boat licence and seargent rank. Den on, he'll try signing on. At least he noes wat he's doin and I love him fer tat!

Hmm.. very pleased lookin' at the way things are goin on in my life rite now. Can never ask fer mo..

Thank you many many Dear!

10-Q many many sayang!

Fer ur tutelage, had lotsa confidence to sit fer my FTT after tat..
Morale booster lah katakan!
Fer the patience to layankan karenah computer i tuu..
Sampai 5 jam non-stop seyy kiter try to figure out wats wrong eh, akhirnyer hahahaha!
Viruses diagnosed! Prob solved (at least)...

Okielah, tak sabar tunggu u kol.. gimme a ring soon yah!
MMMmmmuuuuaahh!

Sayang!!

She's

Stubborn,

nasty,

mean,

ordinary,

fierce,

ignorant,

fussy,

impulsive,

unreasonable,

bad-tempered & incorrigible as I am (like u said)..

I love u fer who u r Baby.. Nothing will ever change tat..

Mmmmuuuuuaaaaahhhh!

Hmm...

im supposed 2 meet ayang 2dae at 2.45 kat bugis.. plannin 2 go sim lim walk2.. but den ayang hasnt called me or msged me since tis morning.. hmm.. i wonder y.. maybe shez bz wif her yger sibs, esp iya..

den she finally ans my kol at ard 1pm.. she sounds teary.. shez cryin.. y sayang? watz wrong? she says itz nothing.. hai.. n im desperate 2 noe.. not being a bzbody but y is she feelin tis way.. im affected too.. tak tenteram beb..

Sempena Hari Mulia...

di saat kiter bergembire skarang,
pasti ramai yg berduka di tempat lain..
ialah, banyak skali kejadian malapetaka yg tlah menimpa kita manusia..
ini semua serupa dugaan yg tiada kesudahannya..
mungkin suatu balasan, mungkin suatu macam kesedaran buat kite suma..
yg penting, kiter lekas lekaslah sedar akan segala kesilapan kiter,
cuba berubah menjadi insan yg lebih sempurna..
lagi satu perkara, jgn sesekali kiter memikirkan apa yg baik untuk diri kiter saja,
pikir sume org,
baru lebih bermakna hidup kiter nie. Betul.. saya tak bohong..
cubalah kalau tak percaya..

I miss u too huney.. Sooo much..

My Greatest Lover, Nina..

Do u noe how much i love u? D love tat i harbour in my heart fer u, blooms into feelings so exquisite, d lips of mine fail in their search to express d words from d heart..
I may haf done wrong in d past.. All d fights, d tears, d surprises, d magic box, d pillow case, d frame n so much mo tat we've shared.. N maybe mo in d future.. But all i ask is fer a chance fer me to prove tat i love u..
I'm forever grateful to Him fer uniting us at d crossroads of our lives.. Let's forgive n forget, n never ever regret.. I'm gonna b loving u forever n ever.. Till d end of time.. Till d very last breath.. Till my heart beats no more.. Herez to better times ahead..
Mmmmmmuuuuuuuaaaaaahhh!!!!

Missin' U Like Cwaziieee

Missin' U Like Cwaaziieee

Tak tahu knape seyy rasa rindu nie teramat sangat these few daes..

I dunnoe whether u feel the same way huney but one ting i'm sure, it feels so argh! I dunnoe how to describe it.

I was counting the daes we've been together.. to be exact, it's already 2 years 5mths and 24 days.. wah! so fast huh! Well, life's been pretty smooth runnin' fer the both of us except fer the occasional fights and arguments.. the grief and the tears, the heartache and the sore eyes, the giggles and the laughter, the gud times and the bad ones, the surprises and the flowers, the forgetting and the forgiving, the bears, the chocs, the cards, the pearl and everitink else... and oso the anus and the arsh-huullss... hehe! And i'm so very thankful to Him tat our paths crossed, we met and fell in love. I love you and I will always do til moi last breath! I noe u feel the same way too Darl (dun be shy)! We'll stay strong and cross all hurdles together-gether k sayang... MMMmmmmuuuaaahhhh!!

"Live each day as tho' it's gonna be ur last cus u'll never noe when tat will ever come"

Those were the daes (II)

Woah.. Didnt noe i wrote tat much.. D sentimentalist in me shows clearly.. D poetic lover bares his true colours.. I muz b really crazy leh.. Crazily in love wif ma swit, suuuiiiit lady! Hehe!

Sayang.. I cumer nak cakap ngan u.. Lupakanlah Si Anu tu.. Dia tak bermakna pada kita, pada perhubungan kita.. U jgn badi lah k? I pon rasa ape yg u rasakan..

Well, in short, u can forget bout Anu coz in d words of tat cute lil Focker kid, hez an "Arsh-Huuuuuuul".. Haha!

Lurv ya huney!

India Trip 2003

Those were the daes..

These entries were made by urs truly wen i was in India last year. Sayang, ur love's so genuine and sincere and i noe fer sure i wun be able to find anione as sweet and charming as u.. now wat can i sae abt u.. Ur a lover n u've loved me too deeply.. I love u too much to let u go now.. hais..

Day 1


"Well, itz exactly 8.50pm at d point im starting dis.. D feeling is starting 2 realli sink in.. 12 days without my darling!! AAARRGH! How worse can it get huh? 12 days.. Hmm.. Seems not much if u dun take into acct d fact dat itz worth about 250 hrs! Haizz.. Dis feeling sux.. Im outta sortz man.. Everyting doesnt seem rite! I noe shez d one 4 me.. She noes how 2 make me happy, make me smile, make me laugh, soothe my nerves by driving me crazy all d time.. I go all weak juz by hearing her voice.. N now i cant even talk 2 her at nite.. 4 12 days! God.. Juz cant stop tinking bout her.. Wish i cud b there wif her, wherever she is.. Den i wudnt haf 2 stop myself frm telling how much i love her n care 4 her.. Hehe!! She means so much 2 me man.. Juz love it wen she smiles evrytime i say i love her as i look into her eyes.. So sweet.. Hai.. Letz not get carried away baby, better find sumting to do b4 i go crazy.. Cheers 4 now..."

Day 2

"Ah.. 1.50am n i still cant get my eyes 2 go *bleep* n shut down.. same ting yesterdae man.. *sob* missing her like crazy.. she did dis amazing ting u noe.. turned me into dis "casanova-romeo" typie.. nvr knew i was like dat.. or wait, maybe im like dat but my EGO always saves, errmm, gets in d way.. hehe.. but im happier now dat i've discovered my true self n how 2 really, n i mean REALLYsumone.. to d core.. im juz so happy dat i make her happy n she noes how 2 make me happy too..n i dare say no one else understands me way better den she does rite now.. n im dead serious.. i really tink shez d one 4 me man.. wanna spend my whole life wif her if i cud.. hopefully.. well, we'll see bout dat in d times 2 cum.. for now i'll juz try 2 get sum sleep.. gettin damn awful eyebags.. juz hope shez fine out there.. adios.."

Day 3

"I could stay awake just to hear u breathing
Watch u smile while u r sleeping
While u're far away n dreaming

I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Where every moment spent with u is a moment i treasure

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
Coz i miss u babe
And i don't wanna miss a thing

Coz even when i dream of u
D sweetest dream will nvr do
I still miss u babe
And i don't wanna miss a thing

Lyin' close to u feelin' ur heart beatin'
And i'm wondering what u're dreamin'
Wondering if itz me u're seeing

And then i kiss ur eyes
N thank God we're together
I juz wanna stay with u in this moment forever"

Aerosmith - I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing

I miss u soooo much my dear.. Can't wait to haf u in my arms again..
MMuuuaaaah!

Day 5

"Well well.. Itz noon 2dae n i juz woke up.. Hehe.. Hey man, yesterdae was not my nite man.. My dear li'l sis was usin d comp.. Waited till i fell asleep.. Hehe.. Niwae, finally got sum news frm her yesterdae.. Was i delighted! Ok ok.. It was juz a few msgs but i was so happy 2 hear dat she was safe n sound.. I juz hope dat she got my replies.. Hehe.. I've nvr felt happier in a few days.. But 4 now, haf 2 wait like 1wk+ for her return.. But i'l be waiting patiently man.. To hold her lovingly in my arms again.. Well, dat'll cum later i guess.. D sooner, d better.. Hehe.. Datz it for now i guess n darling, if u're reading dis, juz wan u 2 noe dat im missing u like crazy down here.. herez a kiss for u.. Mmmuuuuuaaaah! Ciaoz..

Day 6

"Fell asleep yesterdae while waiting 4 my sis 2 finish using d comp.. AGAIN! I'm really goin' crazy frm missing her dude.. My days feel so empty without her.. She means so much to me n i dun wanna lose her.. I juz wanna share my life wif her forever if possible.. Shez THE one man.. Cant wait for her return.. I wanna hold her, hug her, kiss her.. Juz spend time wif her.. I love her so much.. more den i love myself.. Shez my first true love.. Hope shez doin fine n d sweater i gave her is of gd use.. Hehe.. Take care my darling.. I'm tinking of u always.. Mmuuuuaaah!"

Day 7

"Hai.. I cant believe itz been only a wk since u've been away dear.. Felt like ages.. D days seems to really crawl wen u arent ard.. Wen u're wif me, time crawls too.. Hehe.. But itz different.. I've nvr felt so lonely sayang.. I really hope to see u soon n feel ur presence in my arms again.. Missing u like crazy.. N i really mean im really goin crazy.. Itz ok if u cant reply my mails.. I was juz glad to haf heard frm u d other day.. Hope u take care of urself my sweet lil princess.. I'll b counting down d 7 days mo.. Hehe.. Till den, i'll b praying dat u reach hme safely.. I'm always tinkin of u.. Love u so much. Muah!"

Day 8

Assalamu'alaikum Sayang..

Thank u soo much fer ur mails.. I almost cried as i read dem.. Well, actually i've been crying since dis morning.. My ust gave me a kol n wans me 2 go to Pahang.. I haf no choice sayang.. I'm so sorry.. I noe we r both looking forward 2 us meeting on Fri but i realli haf no choice dear.. I realli wish i cud talk 2 u now.. I realli hope u kol me ASAP.. Datz d reason y i didnt wanna go.. I wanted 2 b ard wen u got back but itz sumting i haf no control over.. I realli hope u understand.. Hai.. I'm crying oredi.. Damn..

Aniwae, im glad dat u're ok.. So happy dat u called last nite.. Im missing u soo much now sayang.. N im glad my sweater helped.. Hehe! Realli wish i cud b there wif u 2 take in all d sights n sounds.. Wud b sumting realli special.. Maybe one day.. Hehe! Hope u take care of urself fer d remainder of ur trip k dear.. Im happy dat u've been enjoying urself.. I promise u i'll make it up 2 u fer Fri k.. Hope u'll kol me ASAP wen u can sayang.. I realli miss u..

Guess i'll haf 2 stop here b4 my keyboard gets all wet.. Hehe.. Im juz so sorri about all dis sayang.. Sorri i haf 2 break my promise like dis.. Take care sayang.. Im gonna miss u soo much more.. Kol me k.. My warm hugs n loving kisses juz fer u my love.. Muuah!

Firdaus..

Day 9

Assalamu'alaikum Sayang..

I dunno whether u'll get 2 check dis email or not.. I cant sleep lah sayang.. Been tinking of u day n nite.. N itz made worse by d fact dat i wun b ard wen u get back.. I realli hope dat u'll kol me on wed.. I'll b setting off shortly aftr 10pm here on thur.. Sum nites i cry myself 2 sleep.. N othr nites i juz dun sleep at all..
Sayang.. U mean evryting 2 me.. No one can take ur place.. Itz a fact dat there r many othr better gerls out there but darling, u lah seorang yg bertakhta di dlm hati i n i intend 2 make it stay dat way.. No one understands me better.. U juz noe it wen im feeling down.. N u juz do d rite tings 2 make me laugh n smile.. Cant get enuff of u sayang.. Wish u were here.. Went 2 ur place juz now.. Rasa cam sunyi gitu u takder.. Even ur mum
said dat.. N i felt it real deep.. Hai.. Well.. one plus point is dat both of us will haf holiday stories 4
each othr.. Hehe! About d picnic i havent realli sat down n tot about it.. Cant seem to.. Cant do d planning without u lah.. Hehe! Niwae, wen u get back, 1 of d tings i wanna do is watch Lord of The Rings.. d final sequel.. N 4 ur info i won d PC game 4 dat movie.. Won an SMS contest in d new paper..

Sayang.. i'll b praying dat u'll b safe there.. N dat u'll haf a safe journey hme.. N dat our relatnshp will always b a long n happy one, misunderstandings aside.. Kol me wen u get dis msg k? Or wenever u r free.. I'll always love u.. Come back soon k.. Hehe.. Take care my sweet one.. Mmmmuuuaaaah!

Yours Always,

PhEyR-dOwSe =p

Day 10

Assalamu'alaikum Sayang..

I realli hope u get my msgs till now.. If not, den i dunno wat 2 say.. I juz wish u were here.. I noe u can take care of urself but i cant help worrying.. Furthrmore i wun b ard wen u get back.. Cant help feeling guilty either.. I juz wish dat u wud kol me.. Im missing u n i cant even hear ur voice.. But i guess u haf other tings 2 do.. Juz kol me b4 u leave k.. N i promise 2 kol u wen im there.. I'll b back by sun nite.. Den we'll haf lotsa catching up 2 do.. Kan Sayang? I'll b looking forward 2 dat.. Take care my love.. Miss me tau.. Hehe.. My heart's onli 4 u.. Muuuaah!


Kasihku hanyalah untukmu
Hanya engkau satu
Di dalam hatiku
Hanya kau ku rindu
Belaian kasihmu
Menusuk ke kalbu

Menyayangi dirimu
Segalanya bagiku
Kasih hanya kau
Bertakhta di hatiku

Dan kini kau pergi
Tinggal aku sepi
Oh sabar menanti
Walau hanya sementara
Ku tetap pasrah
Resah gelisah

Ku ukirkan lagu
Waktu ku menunggu
Kehadiranmu
Kembali ke sisi

Rinduku tiada terkata
Haruskah ku merintih
Oh Kasih
Hanya dirimu yang ku cinta
Sepenuh jiwa
Untuk selama-lamanya..

Percayalah sayang.. I loved u then.. I love u all d mo now.. N I'll
love u always, with all of my heart..


Love, Hugs & Kisses,

PhEyR-dOwSe =)

Day 11

Assalamu'alaikum Sayang..

So sorry i had 2 go.. But i hope u understand.. Onli acai noes how "susah-hati" i was.. Hehe.. But dun worry sayang.. Itz onli 2 nites, Sunday nite i dah balik n we can start story-telling maybe? Hehe.. Feel much better now aftr ur kol.. Seems like ages.. I was trying real hard not 2 cry.. U sounded a bit too obvious.. Hehe..

It wun b long till we meet ya sayang.. Sabar k.. Cobaan.. =p We'll decide bout d picnic later.. Like i said, havent given it much tot yet.. Therez soo much i wanna do wif u but.. Hehe.. Nak picnic lah, nak nengok lord of d rings lah.. Hai.. Mcm lah i ni eh..

Take care tau sayang.. I'll try 2 kol u wen i can k.. N biler dah sampai S'pore, im praying dat u'll kol so i noe u're safe.. At least wen u get d msgs on ur fone or wen u get dis email.. I was firing on all cylinders trying 2 lepaskan my frus due to missin u.. Sms ur fone altho therez no one who wud reply.. Email u all sorts of crap.. Hehe.. Im realli missing u like crazy!

So wif dat i end dis thingie.. I'll b back soon k dear.. Bukannye jauh.. Hehe.. Take care k.. Dun worry bout me too much.. My loving hugs n kisses juz 4 u.. Muuuaaah!

Lovingly yours,

PhEyR-d0wSe =p

Hmmm.. tats all the emails he wrote to me wen I was in India. Thank God I was there last year.. the tragedy tat hits the world today is merciless, it tore down the hotel where our chereographers had to saty in wen we were in Chennai.. I still keep the fotos showing tat beach fronting the hotel.. My prayers go to those who stil persist, stil hopin, n is fearless of the now future.. we mus b brave.

Moi Day..

Haha.. Finally, end of d day.. Cam dah lamer tak masuk sini gitu kan.. Seems like a long time since i posted sumting since wat.. 11th Commandment? Hehe.. Nice song kan.. I'm so darn artistically talented.. Nina shud noe.. Rite yang? And i haf 2 say, I'm so very grateful 2 haf such an equally, if not more, talented lover like Nina.. Thanx fer d great surprises, esp d latest one.. Haha! Love ya lots!